Monthly Archives: March 2016
This was an extremely interesting week for me and I have learned some things I hope not to forget. First I want to say even though this is a continuation, of sorts, from yesterday’s post what I have to say here does not necessarily have to do with intuitive eating. Some of the conclusions I came to this week have come from thinking over the ideas and principles of intuitive eating, but like I said yesterday, I am not necessarily following all the principles.
Yesterday in my introduction I mentioned that I have been worrying about my body and the food that I was eating. I also mentioned that I have been beginning to feel peace around my body and food. Well, last week I was feeling frustrated again because my clothes were not fitting so I finally began to pray about all of my frustrations. I began to just tell God that I was frustrated with my clothes not fitting and that I really didn’t want to buy new clothes, but that I also wanted to feel good about my body. I finally came to the conclusion that I would do a five day juice cleanse and I felt complete peace.
So I went about stocking my house with beautiful fruits and veggies. I planned four juices or smoothies (I couldn’t waste produce I already had) a day and most of the recipes were from Fully Raw Kristina. Her juices are full of good fruit carbohydrates and I wanted to feel full and satiated. I also got out Jason Vales 5lbs in 5 days app and watched the videos each day, which were very inspiring. In one of the videos he points out that we should have an attitude of gratitude. To realize that you can eat whatever you want to eat and to do just that, for the purpose of the video I only wanted juices so “stop moping around for something you hope you won’t have” and “either eat it and shut up or don’t eat it and shut up, but shut up.” In other words eat what you want and don’t judge yourself for what you ate.
I really enjoyed juicing for these five days. I didn’t feel like it was difficult and I didn’t want anything, but juice. My mind was finally ready to drink nothing but beautiful juices for five days. On the last day God taught me a very important lesson. People say that juice cleansing helps your mind to not be so clouded and I don’t know, maybe I was ready to learn this lesson on the last day.
Most mornings I have my little ritual; I pray, meditate, and read the Bible. Sometimes I write when I pray, its good to remember the things I talk about and ask about. On this day in particular I started searching the word eat in the Bible. I don’t remember what I was looking for, but something else really stood out to me: Matthew 6:25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?” I realized that I had been thinking a lot about what I would eat and what I would wear, but I wasn’t thinking about the things that really mattered right now. I was living my life, but I wasn’t enjoying it, because I was too worried about my food, clothing and what my body looks like.
Later that day I had an experience that really made me realize how truly God takes care of us and that we don’t have to worry. Sometimes he even takes care of other people through us and we don’t realize it at the time. There are so many ways for him to fulfill his promises.
I also realized the things that we do to look good can sometimes be completely ridiculous. I was listening to a report on the radio, they were interviewing a holocaust survivor and one of the things that really stood out to me was when he mentioned food. He said they were allotted 500 calories a day and they were starving. He said when someone is starving all they do is think about food and there is not a time that food is not on their mind. We do this to ourselves instead of living our lives with intention and enjoying ourselves we get so caught up in needing to look like what the media tells us we should look like we decide that starving ourselves is a good idea. It’s no wonder we can’t keep from eating tons of food all of a sudden, all at once.
I decided then not to worry about what I was eating and to love my body and enjoy this season of my life and how I am living it.
I have been wanting to write this post for a long time, but I haven’t found the inspiration I needed. I am in my last semester of grad school (YAY!) and super busy as always, but that never stops me from thinking (worrying?) about my health and body. The last few years have seen me super stressed and a lot has happened in my life, which I have already posted about. When I first started this blog I was on a high, I had lost 20 or so pounds and I was so excited to share with the world the life I had discovered. Since then I have gained almost all of my weight back and I have gone through frustrations, fears, anxiety, and depression as well as despising my beautiful body just for protecting me. This year I have started to once again feel balanced and I wanted to share with you a new part of my health journey I am just starting to embrace.
This journey begins with Rande Moss. I have known Rande since high school, she is a beautiful person who has always been interested in health. After high school I lost touch with her and then in 2012 found her blog The Vegetable Centric Kitchen. I saw how healthy she was and her enthusiasm for living a detox life started me down the health “rabbit hole.” Sometime in 2014 her blog became somewhat silent, but what she wasn’t telling her followers was that she was beginning to understand a new and better way of living and eating. A way of living that brings freedom around food into life instead of a prescribed way of eating by a ‘guru’ or someone else who ‘knows’ what is best. In 2015 she started a new website and business randemoss.com.
I am going to be honest, at first I wasn’t convinced about this new way of eating called intuitive eating. She says to eat whatever you want and for however you want to feel. I thought, “If I do that I will never eat anything that is healthy, all I will eat is chocolate, veggie burgers and fries, pan dulce with arroz con leche, and Brazilian cheese bread.” Oh, and lots of oily south Indian food (if you are in south Denver Masalaa is the best). But I continued following her posts with interest, commenting often. I think she realized faster than I did how lost I was and how much I was wishing for something new and less stressful. So she offered to talk with me and of course I said yes! We chatted over skype and she listened as I poured out my anxieties and frustrations with eating and my body. She was so sweet and listened so intently, making me feel like all of my problems were real and really mattered. Then she gave me some very well thought out advice and steps that I could begin right away to start feeling freedom.
I followed some of her advice and began small. I first rounded up all of the clothes that I was waiting to fit into and took them to a second hand store to sell. I then made sure I had clothes that fit me and that I enjoyed wearing. She also ‘gave me permission’ in a way, to stop stressing about the food choices I was making because I was stressed. She told me to not judge my choices and to not beat myself up about them, but to just let them be and whatever choice I made that is ok. I am still having a hard time with this one, but I can honestly say that I am much less stressed than I was and I am eating just as healthy even though I am letting go of my judgement and rules.
I also took part in a ‘cleanse’ Rande hosted at the beginning of the year and I am enjoying her lovely and informative posts in her facebook page. One thing that I have been enamored by for a while is women who do not have “perfect” bodies, but love themselves for who they are and what their bodies look like right now. I have never been able to do that, but reading Rande’s posts have really helped me to look at myself with acceptance and realize that I do not have to be a certain size to be beautiful. I am beautiful right now.
Rande is just starting a 12-week, group program called The Freedom Sessions which I highly recommend if you want freedom around food and your body. She has seen all the diets, fads, and cleanses. She knows how to look like she has it all together while feeling like she is falling apart on the inside. I believe one of her biggest strengths is that she understands what you are going through and she cares. Check out her blog and see what she has to offer and how you can start to experience the freedom you wish to feel in your life.
I have learned more about letting go and feeling freedom in your life this past week and I really wanted to share it with you because I feel what I have learned is very important. But this blog post is already very long so look for another post coming soon.